"If they did not doubt"

I have been studying about the mothers of the Stripling Warriors this week, and this verse is a central part of the story.  I know I don't understand it yet, but the more I think about it and talk about it with others, the more pieces come together for me. 

Last night I had a good talk with some other Warrior Mamas about doubts and how we keep them from overtaking our faith. My friend Pam explained the connection with our thoughts and how the process of being more aware of them can really help.  So often my thoughts run on auto-pilot, and that frequently leads to doubt.  Pam explained a beautiful process so well--be aware of your thoughts, discern if the thought is true or not true, and if it's not true throw it out and ask God to teach His truth to replace it.  His truth is found in His word, ancient and modern.  One great verse Pam brought up to think upon when doubt is creeping in is D&C 82:10, "I, the Lord, am bound when ye do what I say; but when ye do not what I say, ye have no promise."

This all got put to the test this morning. Don't you love how God gives us those chances to anchor in our learning? I have been struggling with a sinus infection that has been zapping my energy.  I have tried a bunch of different remedies, but I keep jumping from one thing to another.  I finally REALLY took it to the Lord and asked what I need to do.  Yes, I had been praying that I would feel better and know what to do, but this time it was like an appointment with the Master Physician and I was asking for His prescription for what my body needs to heal.  I got a prompting to clean up and simplify my diet and take a certain remedy every few hours. Consistently. I struggle with that.  I get so darn distracted. 

Anyhow, yesterday I was great with being consistent.  This morning I took it once, and then while I was cleaning up the casual thought came in that I still was tired and congested.  The remedy must not be working.  I'm going to be sick forever. What else do I need to do to make it go away?

WAIT A SECOND! This is what we just talked about.  Do not doubt. God is bound when I do what He says.  I don't need a back-up plan. If I am consistent then the blessing of restored health will come.  I don't need to doubt and fear--I just need to trust and hold steady.

It all happened so fast, but it was the same process Pam talked about.  I recognized the thoughts I was having; I discerned that they were not true; I opened myself to God's truth and chose a belief and behavior that were founded in truth.

Bring on the remedy.  I am trusting in His words to me.  If I do not doubt, He will deliver me!